Author: courtneyaaberg
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September State of Mind
Just when I thought I was sailing through the fifth anniversary of your death (September 8th) with ease, I am beginning to recognize that is not entirely accurate. I should have been tipped off by my leaky eyes on a long car drive, in the shower, and most recently at work within the past few…
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See? He’s her lobster.
Welp, Matthew Perry died a few weeks ago. I’m sure you know. I envision there’s a weekly welcome party in heaven to greet the newcomers. It’s safe to assume this was one of your favorite attendees second only to Alex Trebek who arrived just two months after you. If there’s no party, don’t ruin it…
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Perspective
A grief tsunami struck me today on my commute home. In the midst of an upbeat, non-triggering song on a seemingly “good” day. Unlike many, I usually look forward to Mondays. For me there is something reassuring about the beginning of a new week. I breathe a sigh of relief knowing exactly what my schedule…
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Year Two
I found three strands of gray hair today. I’m sure there is more but for the sake of self-preservation I decided not to investigate further. That means it’s probably time to check in. I’ve been neglecting my grief by choosing to focus on logistical matters to occupy my time instead. I’m an Olympic sprinter in the sport…
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Stages of Grief
After Jordan’s death all I wanted was a griever’s manual so I could understand what to expect in the minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months to come. I love a detailed plan, second only, to a checklist. Have mercy. Is there anything more satisfying? To my dismay, not even Amazon carries an all-inclusive book with…
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Decisions, Decisions
Indecision runs my life these days. Which zip code, school district, and neighborhood is the right one for Delia and I? These are a few of the questions I ponder during the quiet moments of my day. How am I supposed to plan for the future that I never anticipated? There are so many choices,…
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6 months
This is how I picture you in Heaven. Sunshine. Toes in the sand. Cold beverage within reach. Blink-182 playing in the background. In reality, you were bursting at the seams with joy after your first, and only, swim in the ocean during our honeymoon in Kauai. You were determined to go for a dip despite…
Dear Jordan 